Today, she felt
As if the whole world
Conspires to make her feel unwanted
She is holding to a ray of hope
To make her understand
What is happening around
Nothing makes sense to her anymore
A herculean lethargy has gripped her soul
She is swimming against the tide
Trying to hold on to her sanity
A complete washout she feels
Aching body and a broken spirit
Sums up her over all.
She wish she could go to the sea
And empty her heart and talk to the waves
And fill the sea with her burning memories and aches
She is desperate to find some piece of sunshine
And let her heart feel alive
She accepts her mistakes
She faces the dreams of the past
She try to leave behind the regrets
And walk on a new path
Which will lead to a better place
Where regrets and repentance
Will merge in the darkness.
Today, her day was hazy
Her eyes felt as if pulled by lead
Such helpless and nothing much to do
Her body doesn't listen to her anymore
The cells are running haywire
Every bone and vein
Runs on lethargic fuel
Every nerve is numb
And the heart is silent
The dreaded thoughts
Can take her overboard
If only there was some
Sense of hope lurking
In some corner of the universe.
Today, she managed to see
The other side of the spectrum
There were multiple hues
Stuck on the asphalt surface
A kaleidoscopic dance
Gazed at her in the night air
Fluorescent streets
And zooming machines
Grained her gazing eyes
She noticed and felt it too
Humanity is very restless
One cannot trap it
Within the four walls
Life is a milieu of
Many desires and temptations.
Today, she is filled with
Too many ominous thoughts
She can feel the shadows looming
In the dark recess of her soul
There are too many noises
Whirring in the mind
The dreaded thoughts
Has the power to take her
To the other side of the shadows
There is no end to this anxiety
This hopeless vacuum
Will suck her one day
In the deep pools of emptiness.
Today, she dared to go out
Throwing all the precautions to the wind
There was fire in her eyes
To prove to herself
That she can do it
She can take wings
Fly high and land back safely
There was an aura of humanity
Jostling through life
Even holding to life itself
A few steps of courage
Can be a real breathe of fresh air.
Maybe the clipped wings
Are finding the wind
In the right direction.
She is a child at heart,
She wants to visit those lanes
Where her childhood danced.
A freedom she cherished
Without any worries
She found happiness
In the vast fragrant meadows.
She understood herself and her truth,
In the arms of the nature, and
Her innocent heart pranced and felt alive
And now, she reminiscences those days
Gazing, at her lonely shadows
She has been thinking
How to deal with the shadows
Forced by a time unparalleled
There are many fissures
Protruding in her conscience
To lay low or to fight back
To find a bit of light
In that tunnel where her mind rests
The days are converging
Into colors and shades of
Blacks, blues, and every shades
Which darkness can embrace
Her eyes do not see anymore
The seasons of bright colors
There is too much of darkness
Around her heart and the soul
Is immersed in a whirlpool of thoughts.
She has so many things to say
But, the tongue is on a hiatus
Everyday she wakes up
With a feeling of gloom
She carries a huge burden on her shoulders
Dragging through the day
Holding on a blade of grass
Nothing works, the mind is numb
The soul has dried up of every desire
There is a huge vacuum
In place of a heart
Days and days of darkness
Will suck her one day
Through the walls of a black hole.
#floatingthoughts
Day-31 OctPoWriMo-2020
Prompt: Light, Dark and Shadow
Form : Parallelogram de Crystalline
Depressing
Is the imperfect world
Embracing every waking moment.
Uplifting
The sight of blazing clouds
Are they carrying hope in their arms?
Believing
In the power of nature
Let the light heal the darkness in me.
Weathering
All the shadows of time
A Phoenix will breathe again and shine
Participating in : http://www.octpowrimo.com/
